Being engaged is so…. confusing. We’re supposed to be preparing for marriage, yet we really can’t know or think too much about being married because we’re not. Or something. Ugh, it’s just very frustrating. I wish there were more good Christian books out there that dealt with the stage of engagement. It seems that most are about dating/courting or else marriage. At least engagement isn’t too long, for us it’s about 9 months, but lately I wished it was much less time. Then again, there is a ton to do to plan our wedding and also John and I need this time to prayerfully prepare for joining together in the Covenant of marriage. It’s no light thing! What’s interesting is that people are so excited and happy for me and John getting married, but some of those excited people are also people who say they will never marry and don’t see the point in getting married. So why are they so excited for me? I suppose it’s just because they know that I’m happy and will, Lord willing, have a joyful and enjoyable life with John by my side. It breaks my heart how the world is so infused with horrible lies about marriage, but that’s because to the world, the gospel is folly, and since marriage parallels with Christ and the church (which the world doesn’t understand), it’s no wonder marriage is not understood either. Satan is so clever, but man am I glad that he is a LOSER! I really need to pray more for the world, for those close to me who are so far from God and living a frustrating life of lies (trust me, I can see how frustrated and confused they are with how they live and deal with life’s problems). I really really look forward to when John is my closest neighbor, the closest person to me in life, because he inspires me, encourages me, supports me, rebukes me, loves me, and always points me to Christ, which is the very thing I need. Being in a home that doesn’t welcome a radical Christ exulting faith, that doesn’t even think about our Lord, the maker of all things, the very Being that has brought us life, can be so draining and discouraging…This is such a rambling post, but oh well, that’s how I normally process my thoughts – I ramble.


About Carrie

Lover and follower of Jesus, wife to a loving husband, cardiac nurse in a big city hospital, aspiring cook and baker, notorious night owl, and enjoyer of all the gifts God has graciously given me! View all posts by Carrie

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