I am horrible at keeping up with these blogs, so sorry for the few who actually read it. Actually, I think it might just be my sister (hi Jen!). She gets a bit annoyed when I commit to a new blog and don’t follow through… understandable. Well let’s see, since she pretty much keeps up with my life via phone or iChat, what else can I talk about. Well right now I’m spending the day relaxing after having a pretty rough last night and morning this morning. I had a horrible dream about John and it kept me from sleeping well which then made me feel yucky and have to miss a class and exam today. No fun I tell you. Especially those dreams. I’ve had really bad dreams about John off and on for a while now and it’s troubling to me because I don’t know what to do about it. Well, let me take that back. I think our dreams are often God’s way of showing us something that is going on in our spirit- for example, if I am feeling unloved by John on a given day, I may dream that he doesn’t love me… something like that. Of course, the dreams are never true and only show my fears and anxieties, they show the lies that I’m believing or holding onto. What makes it hard is that usually I feel I have gone past those lies or those fears through prayer individually and with my close friends. So, when dreams like what I dreamt last night happen, it makes me a little uneasy again and doubt my progress in overcoming those lies. I also struggle with seeing the dreams as simply works of the devil or as God’s way of showing me something. I don’t like separating those two really because God is sovereign over ALL, even the works of the devil. He has a purpose in everything that we think, do, say, etc. So I think sometimes he lets us dream those horrible dreams to try and tell us something. It’s so easy to just blow it off like it meant nothing, but when it keeps me up all night and really freaks me out to the point of crying, I can’t just pass it off too easily. More than anything, I think these dreams are good reminder to always be in prayer to God about my anxieties, my fears, my worries, and to rest them on Him and not myself. And also, to not only be in prayer when my anxieties come to a peak but at all times, and God will give me peace that will surpass my understanding… now that is the only way to bring a resolve to this season in my life. Prayer… repentence…. more prayer… brings grace, joy, peace, and understanding. Amen.


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Lover and follower of Jesus, wife to a loving husband, cardiac nurse in a big city hospital, aspiring cook and baker, notorious night owl, and enjoyer of all the gifts God has graciously given me! View all posts by Carrie

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