Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! I just ate way too much, even though I tried to keep the portions under control. I can’t say no to yummy homemade apple pie! My parents and brother drove down to our apartment and brought all the food for our amazing meal. It was great! We then played Settlers after dinner and that was fun too, though we ran out of time. My brother had never played it before and he was super sleep deprived, so that was pretty amusing. Anyway, I’ve decided it was time for me to leave the addicting world of facebook for a while, possibly for good. I have noticed just how much time I spend on facebook and how it’s really taking away from time I need to spend off the computer in studying Scripture and in prayer. I know there are other things I can end up doing to waste time, but I felt completely convicted that facebook was getting in my way of my relationship with God and knew that I needed to be bold and get the obstacle out of the way. It was hard to do (yes, I cried), and I needed John’s support to make the final decision, but yep, I did it! That’s about it really… John and I are off to go for a walk and work off some of that yummy food.
I am horrible at keeping up with these blogs, so sorry for the few who actually read it. Actually, I think it might just be my sister (hi Jen!). She gets a bit annoyed when I commit to a new blog and don’t follow through… understandable. Well let’s see, since she pretty much keeps up with my life via phone or iChat, what else can I talk about. Well right now I’m spending the day relaxing after having a pretty rough last night and morning this morning. I had a horrible dream about John and it kept me from sleeping well which then made me feel yucky and have to miss a class and exam today. No fun I tell you. Especially those dreams. I’ve had really bad dreams about John off and on for a while now and it’s troubling to me because I don’t know what to do about it. Well, let me take that back. I think our dreams are often God’s way of showing us something that is going on in our spirit- for example, if I am feeling unloved by John on a given day, I may dream that he doesn’t love me… something like that. Of course, the dreams are never true and only show my fears and anxieties, they show the lies that I’m believing or holding onto. What makes it hard is that usually I feel I have gone past those lies or those fears through prayer individually and with my close friends. So, when dreams like what I dreamt last night happen, it makes me a little uneasy again and doubt my progress in overcoming those lies. I also struggle with seeing the dreams as simply works of the devil or as God’s way of showing me something. I don’t like separating those two really because God is sovereign over ALL, even the works of the devil. He has a purpose in everything that we think, do, say, etc. So I think sometimes he lets us dream those horrible dreams to try and tell us something. It’s so easy to just blow it off like it meant nothing, but when it keeps me up all night and really freaks me out to the point of crying, I can’t just pass it off too easily. More than anything, I think these dreams are good reminder to always be in prayer to God about my anxieties, my fears, my worries, and to rest them on Him and not myself. And also, to not only be in prayer when my anxieties come to a peak but at all times, and God will give me peace that will surpass my understanding… now that is the only way to bring a resolve to this season in my life. Prayer… repentence…. more prayer… brings grace, joy, peace, and understanding. Amen.
Less than a month now until the big day!! I am getting so super excited, it’s intense. Nine months of being engaged has felt like years honestly, and I advise other couples to keep the engagement as short as possible (within reason of course). People have incessantly been telling me “It’ll be here before you know it!” but, I know that it’s not yet here, and it’s felt like forever since we got engaged. Every day we aren’t together still is draining on us and even though the wedding is pretty near now, it’s still hard to wait 30 more days. Even my little niece Haley is telling me right now “Where’s John? I really miss him. Is he working today? Is he coming over later? I miss John… is he working tomorrow all day too or not?” Haha, it’s adorable. My parents usually ask me every day if John’s coming over too. My family misses him just like me!Anyway, sorry I’m kinda sappy and cheesy. There is still a lot of preparing to do before the 17th, so I don’t mind that we still have a month, but yeah, can’t wait for it to get here and not have to think so much about planning and details all the time. The other day I was driving to my friend’s baby shower and I was thinking too hard about favors and missed a really obvious exit. Ooops! Wedding planning can be dangerous too I guess!Ok, enough outa me as far as wedding stuff goes. I just want to be married, not planning! Perhaps other engaged people understand?